Christmas Gifts Part Two

Do you know what is the Christmas tradition in a church ? Of course attending a Christmas celebration at church.

I went to GPPI Kediri, not my own church, but I went there to fulfill the invitation of our family friend. I saw the full place and no seat to sit anymore. At first, I choose to go to mall. My daughter needed a breathful place to have her dinner.  

But it was a very kind of Mr. B, my husband's friend, he looked forward a more comfortable place to join the thriumph of the heaven in Christmas day. And luckily, I did not leave the Chrismas message.

I listen to the priest, that say about healing. There was always a hope. Even for unhealed disease, such as cancer.

At first I jus mocked him, because my thought said, you are a priest, you know nothing about disease and you have never been a son with sick parent.`

And 15 minutes later, I have to apologize him. He had a mother, that had been lived 22 years with brain tumor. She was judged to live only 18 month when diagnosis was made by the doctor.

He said, that the doctors were not wrong. The laboratory was right. But God, above our human mind, is God the Healer. He is the owner of our lives, whether you believe or not. I started to listen to him. I had to make a repentation, that  I forgot Him as The King of kings, The Doctor of the doctors, The Healer of the healers.

It didn't mean that we better pray only without medication. But medication in God's hand is always the powerful medication ever been. 

I want to share about my first dream about being a doctor. I was 14 years girl, with 4 little sisters, and my father had his first heart attack. He was very sick but he refused to go to doctor because we have a little money. I decide to be a doctor and heal many patients without expect any payment. A foolish and impossible dream for many people.

As I learnt to be a doctor, I realize, that being a doctor will make no difference when the patient can not pay the drug. My knowledge was nothing, because I saw from the window of medicine science, there were so many disease that could not be healed and still be a mystery.

When I worked as an emergency practician, I saw painful people with little money. Deep inside my heart I want to be an internist, that my patient got an exact treatment, not a lot of medication with unknown diagnosis or may be, a careless treatment. I understood that being an internist will not always make a good decision, because of the patient's habits too.

And the most fearful diseases that I pray should never happened in my family are chronic liver disease and chronic kidney's disease. 

This time, once again, is the most important Christmas message in my life. Remind me, that without Him, I am nothing. 

Christ Jesus, please reborn in my heart to be my Lord. 


*a student that should learn forever*